Have you ever feel sooooooooooooo lonely, till you can’t stand being alone and so afraid of left behind?
Honestly, I never felt it until yesterday.
I woke up early on Sunday morning and feeling completely lonely. This is my first time spending my weekend at Jakarta without any particular reason. Just don’t want to go back to Bandung.
Try to call my husband, but he’s still sleeping *kata sembokat gw*
My body is so tired, after a long walk the day before.
Yet I can’t sleep and watch korean drama “world within” till 2 am.
So, I just lying on my bed, while the world within still running at my player and I barely watch it *the drama is dragging and boring, btw* Doing nothing. I don’t eat, don’t drink, not watching, not sleep either. My head just blank….. I wanna call my friend, but I think they all busy. I don’t wanna bother them.
Then, at 2 pm I decided to go outside to eat *I haven’t eat since yesterday’s roti bakar* I step out of my room, and don’t know where to go. I want to go to mall, but I’m afraid of being alone *funny, I used to and enjoyed wandering alone at the mall*
After eat I decided to go back to my room. And I feel lonely again.
I think I have to do something to change my mood.
I can’t let this feeling drowning me.
So I watch K-movie “Who’s slept with her”
And my mood slightly change.
Then I re-watch KCE world series.
And suddenly, I fell in love again.